There is this saying that the energy and effort spent into starting to do something is more than that of continuing to do that something, whatever that something is. Its simply harder to start than to continue.

So I fell ill and couldn’t continue to do my “every other day physical exercise” for a week or so. That week of break totally disrupted my rhythm and motivation. Felt terrible, didn’t want to continue exercising anymore. Its just so much harder to start what you have stopped than continue what you have started. Oh man, got to pull myself together again. It is just two more weeks before I partially reap the benefits of this activity that I’ve embarked on. Oh yes, I’ve got to consider my new year resolution too! All the talks about this year being the first ever year that I’ll succeed in fulfilling my resolution… I shall succeed!

Now time for some rest.

2012, the year I will finally manage to succeed in fulfilling my New Year resolution. I’ve set many goals in the past, none of which I have even got closed to. This time around, I swear it will be different. This time around I will, with much confidence, succeed. Look, I’ve even gotten my resolution written down minutes before the New Year. This just shows my resolute and determined attitude.

My New Year Resolution for twenty twelve is… to be damn bloody fit. Oh yeah, that’s my twenty thirteen resolution as well. I don’t just mean healthily fit, I mean healthily and muscularly fit. Might as well have such a goal since for the next 22 months I will be serving compulsory national service. I highly doubt I will have much extra time to do any other things. It all depends though but with my terrible time management and my procrastinating skills I doubt I’ll be able to do anything with the little time I may have. So yeah, get fit and muscular for 2012 and 2013. Oh the feeling of meeting a goal is just so awesome.

That may all change though once I receive my results for my international baccalaureate examinations a week later. If I managed to get incredible results, I may be spurred on to do something such as the SATs or something to allow me to study abroad. I’m totally clueless to all of the overseas studying stuff mainly because I didn’t care to listen or attend any of the talks and seminars. You can’t blame me, all of such talks are merely dreamy and fantasy since I’m neither smart nor hardworking to begin. The irony and contradiction in my speech! Whatever, a week later and I’ll either be crying or studying. Oh and obviously undergoing rigorous physical torture training to fulfil my New Year resolution.

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“Life is like a novel, you are the author and every day is a new page.” There are several major chapters in people’s life, and for me another chapter has come to an end. Whether my story will branch off to a positive or negative route heavily depends on how well I have written this particular chapter. This chapter of course is where I take my major examinations, the International Baccalaureate, and depending on how well I’ve performed, chances of entering the university of my choice will vary accordingly.

Oh well no need to worry that much though since I will have to spend 2 years in the army serving and learning how to defend my country. As much as I don’t really approve of that I don’t really have any other choices. Its compulsory and I just got to do it. Regarding the exams, I believe I will do average. I’ve screwed up some papers, felt weird about others and think I did well for one or two. Average that out and I guess it’ll be average. I’m really hoping that my calculations and gut feeling is right, else… oh well life has many routes. There are many ways to write a story. No need to follow the cheesy cliché ones I guess. Yes, that is how I console myself if I do poorly.

Anyways, its 2 months of break before start of some gruelling physical and nation loving activities. 22 months of army life awaits me, how exciting. A note to myself: Got to make good use of these 2 months of break. Planning to learn how to program an app for android and maybe by the end of this 2 months produce a simple one that works. Also going to go complete all that backlog of games I’ve accumulated over the past few months and years. Lastly, going to do some exercising in preparation for all the physical hardships later on.  Sounds like a good plan to me, just got to execute it. Better not fall into my usual self of talk only no action. It is a new chapter yea, time to write it and write it well.

To end off, I’ll share with you one of my recent favourite quote: “I failed in some subjects in exam, but my friend passed in all. Now he is an engineer in Microsoft and I am the owner of Microsoft.” ~Bill Gates. A foreshadowing! Yeah right just consoling my sad self again.

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Just a few more steps and I’ll reach the top…2 more subjects, 4 more papers and that’s it.

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Time flies, whether you’re having fun or not.A few more days it starts. Another few more days and it ends. Then a few more months and it all begins again.

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I’m almost there.

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“Failures don’t plan to fail; they fail to plan” ~Harvey Mackay. So true, so very true.

“We all fail, some more often than other”; again so true, so very true.

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Computer back up, get it? I love double meanings. I’m meant to be a modern day poet. Anyways, yes my computer was down for roughly half a day all thanks to some brilliant skills of mine fiddling around with the settings. Yeah, tried out some overclocking (if you don’t know what that is just don’t bother) and failed terribly. Why exactly did that result in the failure of my hard drive I have completely no idea. It just makes no sense.

Fiddled around with some settings, overclocked my CPU, ran some test to see if it was stable and for the first 30 minutes everything was fine. So it was a long day in school and I was getting tired. Went to bed and the next thing I saw when I woke up is that the computer was simply running with no display at all. Restarted the computer, found that my OS was totally missing and thus could not be started up. I have begun to pee in my pants. While panicking I quickly tried repair, starting safe mode and do all kinds of nonsense that I think would help. Unfortunately, the sad truth was that the HDD seemed to be completely dead, one part at least where all the critical system files were.

So in my wet pants and profuse sweating due to the panic, I ripped apart my brother’s computer to try resurrecting the dead HDD. But of course you know that resurrecting a dead person only happens in the Bible or in fantasy movies (no similarities drawn there, I’m just saying) so the HDD is gone. And the sad thing is, I haven’t backed up anything at all for the past 4 months.

Yeah, I lost everything, all my data, files, word documents and my all-important school work. But it doesn’t matter since all the assessments in schools are over. It is all about revising now for most people. Not for me though as this marks the start of studying. Yes go search up the difference between revising and studying. But what pissed me off the most was that I lost pretty much 4 months worth of content for the site. Yes I do keep files of what I’ve written on my computer for god knows what but it is all gone. At least 4 months worth of it. Oh well.

So yes, here I am again telling people about the importance of keeping updated backups of your computer and crucial data. I told my dad to do so, told my brother to do so, even told myself to do so before. Well I’m the master procrastinator so I always tell myself next time I can always back it up. In fact the irony of the situation was that I clearly had the intention to do so but because my external HDD was a squat away so I decided next time when I have the opportunity to squat and do something else I would pick the HDD up along the way and perform a backup. Too late, it was too late. And of course unexpected.

I have decided to always do a once weekly backup to my external drive while maintaining a daily copy in my other HDD. I have already sent my destroyed HDD for replacement. That can serve as another backup drive or something when it comes back. Hopefully I wouldn’t procrastinate the next time, but hey unexpected things happen yes?

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So today was the NUSSU Rag and Flag, an annual charity project that is part of the university’s Orientation Programme. Not like it matter to me but there were a bunch of people asking for money or rather donations.

I was asked a total of 3 times, donating at the 2nd time i was approached. Why not the first time I wonder. But there was only one main reason, the person asking for the donations. Alright alright, chill people, I donated not just because of that okay? I donated because…

Lets hope my good will goes a long way in preventing any more mysterious missing coins.

Alright all jokes aside, I was just being kind.

On a second note, I really wanted to donate to the third person, but hey I’m tight on budget, got to weigh the pros and cons. Money usually comes first you see.

No I’m just kidding.

Saw this interesting word and thought that it fitted the bill perfectly to describe me at the end of the first semester this year. Ex-an-i-mate, adjective, inanimate or lifeless, spiritless; disheartened, Exanimate. Doubt I’ll actually remember this word in the future but oh well, it sounds good to me and that is all that matters. Anyways, first semester ended and it was crazy. Now I finally understand what my seniors were saying. First year honeymoon, second year is like the period when you are about to file your divorce papers. Not sure how that fits but I think that’s like the opposite of honeymoon… is it?

Anyways, the first semester ended with a bang. Yes a “bang” to the head, body and soul. For a person like me with little to no time management abilities at all, the “bang” is as big as the big bang that created the universal (if you believed in that theory that is). Enough of the exaggeration but you get the point. Submissions of all the different assessments came and curbing procrastination is something I probably will have in my 2012 New Year resolutions again, that is if the world doesn’t end in 2012.

It is all over now at least, and it is finally time to take a “break”. A “break” from school but not a “break” from exhausting our minds mentally and our bodies physically. The major mid years are right after this “break” and I really hope that the examinations will not “break” me apart like how the “bang” exploded me already. If you are wondering why I’ve still not started studying, or rather revising, it is due to my lack of disciplined and my expertise in procrastinating. There is still another 3 more weeks right? Lots of time, lots of time.

Now if this post doesn’t make sense to you, you have to analyze it at a deeper level. Read between the lines and you might just get enlightened by this beautiful art of mine. Indeed, this post is like poem, so fluid so beautifully filled with metaphors symbols and all those other devices that you learn in your literature class.

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